10.31.09

Even though I have so much to do this week and I am super busy, I just had to post something about how grossed out I am with the pictures I see on facebook. I understand that people have their right to party and do what they want, but posting incriminating photos on a public website is just plain skanky and tasteless. Sounds harsh but really, putting up pictures of yourself kissing all the guys at a party, legs in the air, crotches basically exposed; what image are you putting up of yourself? I'm just really disgusted right now and actually ashamed for these people even though I wasnt at this party or even hang out with these people. I am ashamed of sharing the same sex as this person. And people wonder why provacative words like skank, hoochie, slut, whore are thrown around. Ugh. I'm so peeved. Do it on your own time and dont provide proof of it. Have some self respect.

Haha I dont even know why this ticks me off so much.

Now for some quotes I've heard the past couple weeks that stuck with me...

Your biggest regret is a lesson you havent yet learned from.

Sometimes something you want isnt what you need, and something you need isnt what you want.

You penetrated my heart the way roots of a tree work their way through rocks.

Just do it.

Oh yeah, Happy Halloween! :D rawr!

10.19.09

30 minutes. Surreal thing happened today. It could have been a coincidence, who knows. Trying not to blow things up anymore and feel disappointed. Just going where the wind takes me.

I hope this is a good start to a good week. :D

10.15.09

Quote of the day: "he doesnt look like your type..."
me: whats my type?
"you know, HOT."

hahahaha <3

10.13.09

So I ended up staying up for 25 hours yesterday so I feel like this weekend was like a WEEK. Lol. Im going to try to get a head start on my next batch of midterms so I dont have to suffer anymore. (highly doubt)

So I had lunch with a friend today and we were talking and he's like "you need to smile more! You dont look happy anymore!" :( I mean its not that I dont feel happy, I feel so drained and tired. Mayeb its because its midterm season but I just want to put time on hold and just BREATHE for awhile. Sigh.

On another note. That lunch was so weird. I had lunch with a friend that was actually a friends friend that I met last year and he wanted to get lunch so we planned this out like three weeks ago. He was like can we change it to three? I was like why? Him: I mean I can do two too but I'd rather do three.
So I asked where we were going and he said this Chinese restaurant and asked why I wanted to know so bad. Lol and when I walked by the restaurant with him I couldnt help but laugh. Happy hour was all I could think about and yes he ended up paying because hes an "old fashioned" type guy so he claims. He's just so corny too. "Yeah there's this really cute girl in your pledge class! I saw her a few times! " me: who? Him: Oh the really cute girl is you! Did I not tell you

Oh gosh. So freakin corny. Actually the one person who does read my blog would prob think its cute. Well maybe if it came from someone that i was actually interested in, it woulda been cute :)

Anywhoo its freaking pouring rain right now and I am NOT a happy camper sitting here in the library. :( Im sleepy. Sigh. Ok back to work.

HMMm....

Why is it that most of the time when he calls, I miss the phone call and vice versa?

I called him today and he misses it; I went to the bathroom and I missed his; I called back and he missed it. I think the universe is trying to tell me to not even bother anymore, to stop trying. -___-

10.10.09

Wants may be "easily satisfied" either by producing much or desiring little.

Oh the things you learn while cramming for midterms.

10.7.09 part duex

I dont know if its because I'm just being moody and insensitive but today when people were complaining to me about their boy problems all I could think is REALLY ARE YOU REALLY COMPLAINING ABOUT THAT and I just want to be like ugh, you do equally annoying stuff.

10.7.09

Until as of now, all the people that I knew that passed away, I didnt really know, at least know know in the sense that I saw them pretty often and actually developed a relationship with. And even though death is not surprising in people of great age, death is slowly creeping up on the people that are actually close to me and Im getting scared. So that's all I've been thinking about lately, how many more years do I have with the people I care about? Not a very good thought to have when you are trying to study for midterms. Ive been so lethargic, sleepy, and lazy lately I really dont know what to do anymore. I look at the time and I swear it jumps a few hours and all I want to do is rewind time or at least stop it a few hours.

SIGH.

10.5.09

I changed my bedsheets and theres just something about new bedsheets that feel really good :D and its been kinda chilly lately so now I'm sitting in bed with the heater on. Life feels good right now. Haha, but then again its the beginning of the week. When it gets closer to my next midterm, I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune.

Till next time <3

10.3.09

I was watching the tyra show and the episode was "answering questions about race."

They basically tried to address stereotypes like "why do asian people always own nail salons, why do black people always talk during movies, why do hispanics have so many kids, and why do white people walk around barefoot?"They had a panel of comedians of different racial backgrounds and was suppose to answer the question. Although I was pretty much hooked on the episode, I didnt really like how they addressed it. I feel like it justified those stereotypes because they would just be like YEAHHH and then laughed about it. The audiance was even split up into race. So EH. I thought it was interesting tho.

So anyways, I came home this weekend because I was tired of how berkeley was treating me. haha "I dont need sex because berkeley fucks me everyday" Midterm season + EC + friends - sleep = all bad. But yeah after a tough week of midterms and papers I just had to leave berkeley for a little bit. Although now that I am home and its the weekend, I'm a bit thirsty if you know what I mean.

Schedules for classes are out already. I swear I just settled my classes a few weeks ago. Now even more stress about what classes to take and the ADDED stress now that we dont have pickaprof. Sigh. Next sem is going to be killer. Help me find an easy international breadth or historical breadth. I need that GPA booster for next sem.