12.24.09

I consider myself a pretty selfless person, or at least a considerate person so people tend to tell me that I need to do things to make myself happy, not to make others happy. As I am searching for this balance, I have to say I need to concentrate more on my studies. The way I will do this is by thinking about my dad. After he told me that all he wanted to do was see me graduate before he passes, makes me regret how much I neglected school this past semester to do things I thought would make me happy. So this upcoming semester is going to be really tough for me because I will start taking more and harder classes for my major, pledging, working, trying to maintain better relationships with my old friends, and try to come home more for my dad. That's a lot to do in one semester and I dont know how I am going to do it but I need to.

Sitting in that hospital waiting room made me realize that if I lost my dad, I wouldnt feel like I made him proud enough. That there were so many things I could have done better, not done at all. I just want to be an overall better person. Hopefully I can do this...

Oh Yeah, Merry Christmas everyone :)