Walking in the Rain

I finally watched Pixar's UP today. Boy did the first 10 minutes make me cry. The scene where there was no talking and it showed the old man's love life was sooo sad. However, at the same, in today's society it is so unrealistic. I cant think of one person in my childhood that I could end up marrying. Haha. I probably talk to only a few people from elementary school and only one is a guy who I spent my life with a tolerate-annoyed relationship with.

I hope one day I can have that relationship with someone. Right now, my ideal relationship is to have someone who doesnt mind spending time with me. I mean little things like going to study at the library, staying home and watching a movie, cooking, trying out the local restaurants, and doing some of the things on my Things I Want To Do list. And even though a lot of these are things you can do with just a friend, there's something about having that physical attraction to someone too. Love is going out of your way to do something nice for someone else. I know what love is but I guess romance is love with the physical aspect of a relationship.

I'm still young and I think that in retrospect, all the times I get hurt relationship wise is in a way teaching me what I want in a partner and to not settle on certain characteristics of a person. Because I'm the type of person that doesnt learn until its too late, I learned my share of lessons and I'm sure there are many that I have yet to learn which means I have many more heartaches to come. Great.

Well the movie was a typical Disney/Pixar movie with a good guys and bad guys, black and white, either or motif. I kinda felt bad for the "bad guy". I mean he was like the old guy, he was fulfilling a lifelong mission, finding that damn emu thing. But instead of learning his lesson, he ended up just falling to his probable death like the bad guy in Mulan. Okay I dont remember whether he fell to his death, but nevertheless my memory tells me that he died. And yeah, I just realized that I either A)randomly compared it to any movie where the bad guy dies or B) I lost my train of thought because I have no idea why I just mentioned Mulan. Hah. Sorry.

So I'll leave with that snippet from my old school songs (this particular one is A1- Walking in the Rain). Btw, I don't go through my itunes looking for the perfect song to mention in my blog. Haha, because most of the time I dont even know the lyrics. I just go and write what I feel like and then BAM I actually listen to what I'm listening to (yah you heard me) and realize, "damn those are some good lyrics."

Feels like I'm walking in the rain
I find myself trying to wash away the pain
'Cause I need you give me some shelter, 'cause I'm fading away
And baby- I'm walking in the rain

Well, since its summer, I'll try to wash my pain away in the shower ;)

Actually when I shower I really do wash away some of my pain. Call me crazy but I talk out my pain, sometimes acting like I'm talking to the person that has hurt me. Sometimes I feel better and empowered and sometimes I end up crying and feeling worse. So bye, Im going to wash away my pain and hopefully start from scratch. :D