How depressing... or rather a buzzkill, if i was buzzed.

I know this picture is kinda random... but I get my pictures from picapp and I didnt like the "depressing" pictures so I searched for "upset" and saw this and just couldnt help but laugh.

Feeling depressed is... well depressing. But I think what is more depressing is someone who really is depressed and reaches out to you and you dont know what to do. After almost a year and a half of consoling a depressed person and just trying to be there to meet up and talk when he is in need, I honestly dont know what to do anymore. I feel really bad but I dread those conversations because it makes me feel like an ass when I complained about my problems to him. So yeah, I dont know what to do anymore. Sigh.

I was watching Paris Hilton BFF show and it is a total guilty pleasure because I really am against the idea of the show that she thinks she can find a bff through a contest, let alone one that is televised. But it made me think of my friendships/acquaintances. I need to learn how to develop my friendships more. I noticed I tend to pick a few new people to hang out with and then thats it. I gotta learn how to balance everyone. Like I said I have a lot of love to give, especially since that guy is out of my life and I'm not using/wasting all that energy/emotions.

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Fort minor- Where'd you go?

sigh. Another song that speaks out to me :D I love how my itunes is so psychic. I used to play this game with my best friend where we would ask a question or say a person and on shuffle, the song would tell us about our situation with that person or the answer to the question. :D

Life's a prison when you are in love alone...

Usher- can you help me. I just like this line.

I really like Usher songs but boy is he a douche; pardon my french.

Well... chicpea signing out at 3:55pm man I cant wait to move back to college to make these blogs more interesting haha :)