3.18.2010

Friendship is about not kicking when they are already down. Why do you make me feel so bad. I didnt need another parent. Leave me alone. I dont know how to get rid of you. You are such a hyoocrite. I never have fun when I'm with you. I think its time I let you go.

2.25.10

I think I will do pretty well on my bio midterm. I feel so confident because this is relative to my upcoming physics midterm. I was so confident that I spent the past half hour playing blockles with mcho, who by the way is horrible. Upon logging into omgpop, I realized that the rules changed and now its not even tetris. Weak. I miss the days when I used to stay up all night with my roommates and floormates from the dorms screaming THATS RIGHT BITCH TAKE THAT, YEAH THATS RIGHT I GOT A CLEAR! and playing battle hamster and baloono. Sigh I miss the dorms….. and the mealpoints. :( I feel so hungry nowadays but dont have the time to go home to make something and feel so poor when I spend money to buy food. I need to get some nutritional bars from costco is what i need to do.

I woke up late this morning and had to choose between running to work after taking the later 7 bus or taking the 1 bus halfway. I decided to do the latter. I walked to the busstop and saw aho and apparently the 51 just left him. So we waited for the 1 bus to come together. Yet, when the bus slowed down…. it sped back up and left us. Ac transit system this is not the first time you’ve screwed me over or… Aho must have really bad luck with buses. I couldnt wait for the next bus so I decided to try to walk to northside from shattuck in 15 min. -___- it took me 17 min and I decided to take the stairs up to job location instead of walking around the building to take the elevator. Came in hot and tired and felt really bad for being late. I felt super unprofessional :(

I started falling asleep while indexing articles so after work I decided to get some coffee at Peets near the EECS library. The line was SUPER long. So I decided to go to Mainstack’s coffeeshop…. SUPER DUPER long line. So I decided to go to VLSB coffee shop. All I wanted was an iced double shot soy white chocolate mocha. I would have settled for an iced double shot mocha. But nope, they didnt have ice -________________- so I walked to Tullys in MLK. You would think my mission would end there. Yeah I thought so too.

I was excited to see the coffee of my choice on the menu. I ordered, paid and anxiously waited to be cooled off by the icy goodness of coffee that I worked so hard to find. They called my order and saw it in a cup…for hot drinks. “I said iced….” oh sorry…. hmmm “DOES ANYONE ELSE WANT A FREE COFFEE?” …..wow. After she made my drink:

me: ICED DOUBLE SHOT WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA RIGHT?
lady: ……….double shot? …..yeah……..

*yeah, I dont think it was double shot because 30 min later in AAS I was falling asleep until the guest speaker started talking about nigahiga and happyslip.

I proceeded over to the benches to sit with jchen when someone asked if we would fill out a questionnaire. Yeah it wasnt a questionnaire, more like a contact info for a business related thing…. no thanks. Another group approaches us and asked if we would do a questionnaire about Haiti. Sigh. I guess… after questions about how we felt about the haiti situation… I heard “HOW DO YOU THINK GOD PLAYED A PART IN HAITI” …. wow…. tricked me. I decided a good number of ppl were already talking to them so I turned to another friend and started to tune them out. “Elaine on a scale of 1-10 how interested would you be in discussing further about god’s part in haiti?” ……1. or what dlee said “if there was a zero i would say zero”

02.23.10

Because You Loved Me- Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

Fall 2k9 Nu Class. <3 Forever and always. Thank you for sticking it through with me. No lie, I didnt know if we could make it but I'm damn glad we finished. <3

1.10.09

Fobby people at 99 ranch are amusing... :)

So at the fish section, there are different numbers that correspond to what you want to be done to your fish ie. 1) cut off head, 2) cut off scales... etc. and it so happens that 5 is normal fry.

Lady rolls up with her cart and says: I want one fish fried.
fish man: five?
lady: no one. Fried.
man: yeah 5?
lady: ONE FRIED.
man: FIVE OR SIX (six was like a crunchier fry)
lady: *Turns to my mom* HUH!?
mom: *to the fish man* FRY! (and proceeds to walk away)

oh dear. im sure the lady was thinking "GEEZ i've BEEN saying that." haha I had a good laugh watching this and my sister saying I was mean for not helping. In my defense, someone else pointed to the sign after my mom walked away. Haha.

Only a couple more days until I go back. I dont know if I feel about it yet. Pooey.

1.07.09

I hate how things remind me of you and it makes me think of all the times we were good. We were like that every night with your arm around me too. -___- I hate how you can be such an ass but I still miss you. I disgust myself sometimes.

1.04.09

New Semester Resolution:

As students, we start afresh every semester; new notebooks, pens, classes, classmates, etc.

So I figure I'll make new semester resolutions instead of new years because a semester seems a lot more doable than a year. This way, I can reevaluate what resolutions I need to work on, those that I need to give up on, and those that are already engrained in my daily life. So here we go!

1. Go running… at least once a week and find someone to do it with me. I'm contemplating whether to run at night or in the day.
2. Go over my notes after class and get help from a tutor early on.
3. Keep in better touch with my friends and limit the ones I should have along time ago.
4. Try new restaurants and/or order new things
5. Volunteer more in the community
6. Attend club meetings and try to be more proactive in them.
7. Call home more often
8. Be more clean around the apartment
9. Don’t waste so much time on facebook :( I was doing so good with fb games but then I got too good at fb stalking this sem -___-
10. Not let not having a boy hinder my confidence.

Hopefully the fact that there are ten of them, I'll be able to keep at least half of them throughout the semester.

12.24.09

I consider myself a pretty selfless person, or at least a considerate person so people tend to tell me that I need to do things to make myself happy, not to make others happy. As I am searching for this balance, I have to say I need to concentrate more on my studies. The way I will do this is by thinking about my dad. After he told me that all he wanted to do was see me graduate before he passes, makes me regret how much I neglected school this past semester to do things I thought would make me happy. So this upcoming semester is going to be really tough for me because I will start taking more and harder classes for my major, pledging, working, trying to maintain better relationships with my old friends, and try to come home more for my dad. That's a lot to do in one semester and I dont know how I am going to do it but I need to.

Sitting in that hospital waiting room made me realize that if I lost my dad, I wouldnt feel like I made him proud enough. That there were so many things I could have done better, not done at all. I just want to be an overall better person. Hopefully I can do this...

Oh Yeah, Merry Christmas everyone :)